wilderness path

a significant inner journey

 

 

“The container is eternally empty.

 

The container only holds what the receiver wishes to receive.

 

The container’s only role is to hold, temporarily,

what the receiver wishes to receive.

 

The oracle is the container, asking nothing for itself.

 

Its role is solely to provide to the receiver with what the receiver receives.”

 

 

Desert Spirit

 

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To GIVE AWAY DESIRE

 

Sunday, November 11, 2012

 

Desert Spirit

 

  Today my lesson reads,

 

 

Now would I be as God created me.”

 

 

     Now I will be as God created me.

     Now I will TO BE AS God created me.

 

     Now I call forth and claim I am as God created me. This is my holy instant of release from time, space and ego-thought system. From the Lord God of my being I call forth Christ the holy Self I Am. Come forth now, lift my spirit, and bring Your peace not of this world to my mind now.

 

     If you created me now this holy instant, how will Your grace ask me to use this power? What will You have me do, where will You have me go, what will You have me say and to whom? Decide for me now for my earthly journey.

 

     I call forth and claim the role of Son of God. As You give me Your Thoughts, I give this reply back to You. What IS the role of Son of God? What is it You will for me to learn or unlearn? I do not know what the role is in the dream of forgetfulness. I speculate, and yet if feels the role changes. And I question the validity of the Tarot reading that reveals the present position of my journey to be one of successful outcome.

 

  

 

 

     And so the Lesson reveals,

 

 

 

Today I will accept the truth about myself.”

 

 

    

     I claim this truth as You have revealed it to me; “I am not a body. I am free. I am still as God created me. There are no laws but God’s. I am under no laws but God’s.”

 

     But what are God’s Laws?

 

     I call forth and claim the Daily Bread You give me this day. Let me not fill myself, but fill others with the Benefits THEY will to receive. Give to me what I will give to the others who ask. Give to me so I may give to them what I owe to them. Allow me to give them what I would receive to give to them. But I am thinking this is not correct….would I ask first, for me, and second, for them?

 

      You have Revealed I am the medium. I am the oracle. What is the role of the oracle?

 

     If I am the medium through which Your holy Mind passes to them, then would I give to them what they request? Would I give to them what they feel they need? Would I be asked to satisfy the requests they make to me? For if what I give to them is Given to me, then here today they too must be a Son of God.

 

     Can the stream only flow to itself? It seems to me that today I perceive the idea of asking to receive in order to give is backwards. For if every being asked for themselves first, there would be no extending of the creative force. If there is no extending of the life force, how can creation continue, how can anything grow?

 

     Oh my God.

     

     I have for so long extended the need to not pray for others, but pray for clarity in myself. And although this is an essential step, it is useless unless it is given to others. Yet there are others who have not this awareness available to them. And so to “pray for others” is not to ask for them what I think they need, but to ask You to give to them what they need. “Father, forgive them….” Rather than, “Father, forgive me for misperceiving them.”

 

     My Lesson continues,

 

 

“I will arise in glory, and allow the light in me to shine upon the world

throughout the day. I bring the world the tidings of salvation

which I hear as God my Father speaks to me.”

 

 

 

     tidings -  news, information

 

 

     What are the tidings of salvation? You ask I bring news/information that I hear AS You my Father speak to me. What IS the news? Today I find my prayer to You is for THEM to receive Your grace. It is the request to give THEM what THEY ask for and not give only to myself what I would give to them.

 

     I ask that You give THEM the good news, the good information that I have to share with them. Today I ask You to give to them the good news of health, wealth and success, that it may make THEIR burdens lighter.

 

     How could such a gift of attention to them and away from me be the request YOU offer me now? It is revealed in the second card of the Tarot drawing, present expectations, She Who rules Her kingdom. 

  

 

  

 

      It seems to me to pray for THEIR health, wealth and success is what a medium would be asked to do, is what the oracle is asked to do if he is already complete. The oracle is that through which Your gifts pass. It is like a container.

 

     The container is eternally empty. The container only holds what the receiver wishes to receive. The container’s only role is to hold, temporarily, what the receiver wishes to receive. The oracle is the container, asking nothing for itself. Its role is solely to provide to the receiver with what the receiver receives.

 

     This day the shift of awareness comes through this Lesson whereby my request to You for myself and my needs ENDS, and shifts to my request to You to give to THEM what they need. I do not know what they need, nor will I define it, but I will ask You to give them what You see is their need. Is it not the responsibility of the oracle to do so?

 

     And so my Lesson reveals,

 

 

 

Now would I be as God created me.

And I behold the world that Christ would have me see,

aware it ends the bitter dream of death,

aware it is my Father’s call to me.”

 

 

 

     What is the world as Christ would have me see it? I cannot keep what I have unless I give it away. Giving is proof of having. I ask that You give to them what they need. 

 

     I must give away my desire for health, wealth and success.

     I must give away MY desire for health, wealth and success.

 

     I must give away my desire for safety, security and abundance.

     I must give away MY desire for safety, security and abundance.

 

     It is the only way I can recognize it is Your gift to me. To ask that they receive what they need does not lessen anything in me. Rather, it proves I have it.

 

     It is true my prayers have been selfish and only concerned for my safety, security and abundance with little care for their needs. And I thought this was the message of the atonement, as You revealed, “The sole responsibility of the miracle worker is to accept the atonement for himself.” Yet, what I HAVE accepted may I now ask that they accept for themselves?

 

     Now I ask, “What is it they need that I can provide? What is it they need that You will provide?” There is only one thing; it is my request to You to give them what they need. What is their need? It can only be one, if we share it. It is the return of remembrance of You in them.

 

    Of myself I can do nothing. But through me Your light and Your mercy will pass. Then he prayed for them; “Father, forgive them.”

 

     Father, feed them. Father, let them see. Father, let them hear. Father, restore their happiness. Father, heal them. Father, give them that for which they ask.”

 

    Make light their journey. Give her the love she seeks. Give him the family he desires. Give them their full due. Make light their path. Today I deeply want for them more than I want for myself. Oh God, help me make this desire not self-serving.

 

     I have been praying for myself, for my needs when it is THEY who need, and only in meeting THEIR needs would I ever be of service to You. Give them Your power, Your light, Your success, Your strength. Open Your treasures TO them, to all I have despised. Release them from the ugly requests I have made. Given them Your awakening. And I gladly ask they be given Your grace if through me it will pass.

 

     How else could they, who do not ask You, receive what You wish TO give TO them?

 

     If they have forgotten, let me ask FOR them. Let me pray for them. Let them today receive Your light. “If someone takes your coat, give them your cloak also.” Why? Because it is for their highest good. What can I possibly need if the only need of Christ is to give Your Love to You and His brother?

 

     Today attention shifts away from me. It is not I who need. It is they who have forgotten they are the Christ. Give them this day their daily bread. Give them the health, wealth and success for which their spirit hungers, and end the delay THEY seek, through me, who is Your Son who asks in His Name.

 

     Oh my God… I have been self centered. How could I expect to be filled while I have no desire to give to them or to see they receive? “Those who are second will be first, and those who are first will be second.”

 

     This day attention shifts away from me. I come to fulfill the role of the Christ, the Oracle, as You my Creator give it. What is it? Give to them what they think they do not have? Delay, that I perceive in my life, is the idea that I have not thought of what I desire for them to receive, but only what I could get from them.

 

     Now the gift of the Christ asks that You give to them. Give to them their full due; Your peace, Your love, Your wealth, Your grace, Your strength, Your abundance. Is it a violation to God’s Laws to ask for THEM to BE comforted? Is it a violation of Your Laws to ask they receive what they think they need?

 

     It seems to me every single relationship I have with my personal lessons is based on what I ask to give to myself first and to them second. It seems logical that I receive what I would give to others first. Yet this is backwards. It must be. For the need OF others IS what allows ME to have fulfilled my need.

 

     My only need is for their needs to be met. That must be the role of the one who is already fulfilled.

 

     If every being asked You to give to them first, would there be an outlet to give to others? For this would make giving a consuming and not a sharing. Life gives; it does not consume. What consumes must do so because it is dead and must be sustained in order to ‘live’.

 

     Today my attention is reversed, directed away from me. What is it they request? And how will I meet their requests? I can only meet their requests by asking You to give them what they need. And if You will use me for this service, then it is a role given me to ask for them what they asked to receive, and allow You to decide how that will be fulfilled. But the request to receive is for THEM to receive.

 

     And so I claim the role of the Oracle in the world must be to ask for them what You would give to them. What could I ask from God that I do not already have? Their need is my own. And if I already have all that You have given me, then it is this I will ask for them – that they remember You, that they be saved, safe, secure, healthy, free, fulfilled, guided, cleansed, awakened, rewarded.

 

     They are not praying for me. They do not even know I exist. But I know every one of them and every need they have. I hear them. I hear every prayer because it is my prayer to You.

 

     Today let it be Your Voice I hear today that says, “What you ask for them is what you ask for yourself, but what you ask for yourself is not for them but only for you. Ask, then, that they receive from Me what He wills TO give them, and you gift will be forever secure.”

 

     Be it so now.

     “It is done.”