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Who can remain with a disturbance  but convince himself he is ‘forgiven’?

Only a fool, caught in the trap of denial, would make such a claim.

Desert Spirit




The Great Lie Hidden In The Words, “I am forgiven


Friday, November 06, 2009






    Today I think of he who claims to be “forgiven” and will investigate such a statement.


     It seems perplexing to me for a being to say, “I am disturbed by a thief,” and “I do not need to look inside myself as to why this bothers me,” and in the same breath say, “I am forgiven.” Are these two opposing concepts not clearly contradictory?


     To say, “I do not need to look inside myself as to why this bothers me” cannot be less than the demonstration of a fearful mind, a closed mind, that thinks its desire to claim “I am forgiven” is sufficient to bring about a healing TO the disturbed mind.


     Who can remain with a disturbance but convince himself he is ‘forgiven’? Only a fool, caught in the trap of denial would make such a claim.


     How convenient for a being to not go into his disturbances regarding thieves, but retain the idea he is “forgiven.” In such a manner, one never has to LOOK AT his disturbance.


     And so it is suppressed, pushed down into the subconscious mind, to rot the soul. It is the dirty secret that is placed into the closet of the closed mind. And placed on the door OF the closed mind that keeps hidden this disturbance is a clichι, an affirmation, a sign, a clever and cute slogan such as “I am forgiven” that keeps the mind deceived ABOUT its unsettled disturbance.


     Yet to merely recite and repeat words do not make them a truth.


     This being is disturbed by thieves. He is “bothered” by thieves. What does the thief reflect FOR him ABOUT himself?


     Is not he who says, “I am forgiven” a thief? Does he think he can steal forgiveness from the Heavens for his own personal use?


     Does not “Father forgive them” imply that only the Father can forgive? How can the ignorance of man use the Gifts of the Unseen for his own perverted end?


     So the thief is disturbed by thieves?


     He who claims, then, “I am forgiven” while remaining disturbed and refusing to look AT his disturbance is a thief. He has attempted to steal the Light from the Other World for his own personal gain.


     He is deceived to think that mere words are truths by which he lives. And to reveal these things to him will bring ANOTHER disturbance. But no worry; he is “forgiven


     If a man is to say to himself, “I am a mouse,” does this make it true for him? Is it true for a man to say he is a mouse, while being something else?


      In much the same way, to say, “I am forgiven,” while resenting the thief is a lesson in self-deception. And he IS a mouse if he scurries into darkness each time a disturbance is brought to his attention.


     The one who finds thieves disturbing does not see he himself is a thief who has attempted to steal Grace from the Higher Realms for his own personal use.


     Until he can see that he is a thief, and this is WHY thieves disturb him, he will remain a thief, remain unforgiven, but convince himself otherwise.


     “I am forgiven” means nothing to a disturbed thief. It does not make a mind forgiven, or healed, or corrected of its misperceptions.


     “I am a mouse” does not make one a mouse, unless of course one wishes to live AS a mouse.


      Now I wonder if he who thinks he is “forgiven” will not be disturbed by this message the Unseen sends to him today?


     What Forgiving Source would place these words into this being’s hands today?


     If I am Asked to use time and attention to write this, would he who is “forgiven” take the time and attention to study it?


    After all, he who says, “I am forgiven” should be elated by such discoveries. Perhaps he can share them with another?



     Today my Lesson reads,


"The conscious choice of Heaven is a sure as is the ending of the fear of hell, when it is raised from its protective shield of unawareness, and is brought to light."


     What I am Told is The Final Step is something that Spirit Authorizes. In the same way, 'the conscious choice of Heaven ' is the Privilege of the Unseen, to be used as It sees fit.
     It is Given TO the unconscious mind, the level of the Self, and finds its way into the conscious mind.  Received into the conscious mind it becomes AWARENESS. I become aware, or I am given an insight, a moment of light, an "AHA" moment.  One can only prepare for it, but cannot claim it as a personal possession. The preparation for it is the seeking and finding of the mistakes, errors in thinking, that hide, and are kept protected by a being who preserves hell's gift of fear as a protective shield.
     Today the Lesson reveals a condition that HAS been Decide, BY Heaven, and is part of the release from the past; the reliving of past lessons with a different ending.
     Protecting hell's gift of fear, through the desire to protect oneself from undetected discomfort, does not allow for the Light of Release to be known. Yet to open the doors of the unconscious mind has to be considered if there is every to be a fresh, new perspective about what is hidden there.
     Even the opening of the doors of the unconscious realm must be made welcomed, because Spirit will not impose Itself on a mind that prefers to remain in the dark about its disturbances.
     Hence, ideas such as "I do not have to investigate why I am disturbed" become hell's gift of fear that the mind thinks protects it, yet is, ironically, an unconscious desire to make welcome the opening of the doors TO the unconscious realm.
     In that, the initial impact may stun one as it is received into consciousness, sort of like the story of Paul who is blinded by the Light on the road to Damascus.  Sort of like the impact that was made on Bill Wilson in Towns Hospital when he was awakened to Other Dimensions.
     It impact is life changing, and one cannot ever again return TO a state of consciousness that preceded it.
     And so it is dishonor to oneself to claim a state of being of which one is not fully aware, in which denial becomes one's god.