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"Special relationships are those relationships in which the body and 'individuality' are given reality 
that seems to make a person different from others."  

Desert Spirit



Desert Spirit

Tuesday, August 01, 2017


“I said that I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. That is why I am the light of the world. If I am with you in the loneliness of the world, the loneliness is gone. You cannot maintain the illusion of loneliness if you are not alone. My purpose, then, is still to overcome the world. I do not attack it, but my light must dispel it because of what it is. Light does not attack darkness, but it does shine it away. If my light goes with you everywhere, you shine it away with me. The light becomes ours, and you cannot abide in darkness anymore than darkness can abide wherever you go. The remembrance of me is the remembrance of yourself, and of Him Who sent me to you.”

     These words I have been studying for about two weeks, culminating to my insight today that brings all this to understanding. Today is August 1, 2017, a new month begins, and a new beginning.

     8/1/2017 = 19 = 10; 10 being the number of completion of a cycle. 10 also represents the number 1 and the 0 side by side which contains all power. The One is All Things, Whole and Complete.

     Since April of this year there have been many difficulties to experience, some of them my deepest concerns. Yet as I have come to understand that all conflict is within, it is foolish to attempt to seek solution to difficulties through external means. The difficulties can be anything; lack of understanding of a predicament in which one finds oneself, difficulties in relationships, conflict with others in work, play, business, a limitation on movement due to circumstances that prevents one from ease of movement, financial difficulties, ideas of betrayal by others.

     And so all things I experience I realize ARE Given to me to overcome, what Spirit calls “tests”. I have been Told that tests are those things I have asked to enter into before I came to the earth level. Whether this is true or not is not the point. The point is that we all have challenges and how we perceive those challenges represent how we perceive not only ourselves, but how we perceive others as well as the Source from Whom others as well as ourselves came.

     The tests therefore become those things that I asked to experience, that they may be provided in order for me to exercise the use of my understanding, not only of myself but of those things WITHIN the tests as well as the others who are participants in these tests. For it is only in relationship WITH others that these tests can be understood.

     It then becomes apparent that as part of the tests I ask to receive, the others who are part of the test and the events within the test are requested. To think, then, that anything occurs “randomly” is a false understanding of not only oneself, but of others as well as the Universe of which we are all an inherent and intricate part.

     The special relationship does not allow a person to fully recognize the test or the events the test brings forth. Special relationships are those relationships in which the body and “individuality” are given reality that seems to make a person different from others. At the level of Spirit, all beings are part of the Same Source, making us one. That we wish to cling to personal self, or ego, is the willingness to remain apart FROM the Source and not united in and with the Source.

     To engage in the promoting of special relationship does not bring peace, joy or happiness. The tests then become experiences in which we are given an opportunity to see ourselves as MORE THAN the Halloween costume, the personal “I” we have designed for ourselves.

     Experiences, then, cannot GIVE peace, joy or happiness.

     It is a deception in thinking that suggests experiences will GIVE or BRING peace, love, joy, happiness. And so I may pursue the experience, as in “I want a new relationship, I want a new job, I want to go to a new place, I want to live in such and such a place, I want a soul-mate, I want a husband, I want a wife, I want a career” and so on and so forth in the IDEA that these experiences WILL PROVIDE the individual with a “freshness” that is not present, not felt or experienced in the individual.

     And so we pursue endless experiences, yet never discover the motivation behind this pursuit is fear, loneliness, lack of love, emptiness, insecurity. Then when I experience the experiences, but find no relief except for the instant gratification it may provide, this inner discontent deepens to a point of desperation. In desperation, we will settle for ANYTHING, and attempt to convince ourselves and attempt to convince others that we have “found happiness and love”. We then will seek to have this falseness confirmed by offering “evidence” TO others OF our happiness.

     What IS this evidence of persuasion we offer that keeps us deceived? One person may post pictures of herself or himself and her/his relationships with others in a vain attempt to convince themselves AND others of their “new found happiness”. But the spirit never lies, and although the photograph seems to show smiling faces and joyful occasions, the photos emit a quiet pain and deep unsettled desperation that cannot be hidden.

     So experiences do not bring joy, or happiness, or peace, or love. Experiences are EFFECTS of the individual’s requests to enter into tests that will liberate the mind and spirit from its own sense of separation from Self and the Source. Joy will BRING joyful experiences, but experiences cannot bring joy. Conversely, deception will bring deceptive experiences. And those who do not recognize this will say, “He/she lied to me/cheated me!”

     Now the Teacher offers and reaffirms in the above passage that He is the light and that this light has been brought to the earth level, a Level of Consciousness that exceeds man’s understanding, to which man must ascend, arise. For this are the tests provided. For this are the experiences used to shed the false self.

     He says in EVERY experience his light is there, with me. And no matter where I may travel, this light is with me. In the past, in which I have “lost” possessions, been asked to leave my home, and most recently ended a 17 year relationship with a business partner greatly affecting my income, His light is with me. He is with me, assuring me I am safe, in His peace always, and everywhere.

     He further goes on to explain that I cannot BE alone, or in worry, or consumed by fear IF He IS with me unless my attention is not aware OF His presence. That I may experience these energies does not mean that I must be overcome BY them or even seek a solution TO them. These are tests. Tests are designed to determine to where I apply my energy; in the idea of a separated self needing to figure out how to survive in a world external to me, or to the truth that I am part of a Greater Understanding and that these experiences/tests allow me the opportunity to relate to truth.

     Now today is the number of completion. I cannot abide in the darkness of ignorance. I cannot abide in the idea that problems do not have solutions. The light He offers me today comes quietly with the Thought, “No matter what the perceived problem seems to be, there is always a solution.”

     I ask, “Then what IS the solution to this particular situation?”

     He replies, “The solution to that particular situation is the same solution to the other particular situations from which you seem to suffer.”

     I ask, “And what is THAT solution?”

     And He says, “The solution is that there IS a solution TO every situation. THAT IS the solution.”

     I have spent countless seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years attempting to “solve” all my “problems,” often prioritizing them according to their level of “importance” and priority. And yet in hindsight, today, He shows me how I HAVE overcome every test, every experience, and that by overcoming it means that it is WITHIN ME to discover the deeper significance OF every test and experience.

No matter what the perceived problem seems to be, there is always a solution.”

The truth that there is a solution to every problem IS THE SOLUTION”.

     To recognize this truth is to see that IN every experience IS this light present, that the Helper IS always there with me, with us, and that every experience is designed for one outcome; to assist me in remembering Creator has sent Him to me, and that in this recognition every being, every situation that is sent TO me contains His Presence, and that His Presence IN every situation is the Solution.

     To pursue endless solutions to various problems seems to be the logical and responsible thing to do. And yet the irony of this is that if we HAVE a solution TO every perceived difficulty, there IS NO NEED TO experience a test or a difficulty OR pursue solutions TO them. Yet there is no doubt that we do have many experiences to undergo before we arise to the fact and truth that each one test and experience is that for which I asked, and each one for my highest good.

     Creator sends Him to me. Therefore, it must be true that others are sent to me by Him. And so it must follow that as He sends Him to me, I am sent to them by Him, and we who recognize this are part of this Secret Society that governs all beings and everything.

     Rely not on your own ideas that only alienate you from others and yourself. A good guide to follow is that if you are truly free of a past lesson or test, then the ability to communicate TO and WITH those who were part OF that lesson are open to you and have no conflict in them. If you are not free to speak with those with whom you feel conflict, you will repeat the lesson, again and again, until you discover the True Relationship is only with Him and Your Self.

     If it is a truth, “I will never leave you comfortless and “The remembrance of me is the remembrance of yourself, and of Him Who sent me to you,” then He Who sent Him to me is He Who sent others to me, but also He Who sends me to you, now, today.